The Dimness in Depression

pugdog

Depression is a cocoon

immune to others needs

Temporarily

Taps become raps
Snags morph into nags
The list to do
Ensues
Battle
Leaving you rattled
Blasting fibs
Lack of competence
Zero confidence

halfshade

You see the shades half-south
While the rest thank God cuz their sun never goes down

Dim
Is worse than dark
You can see the spark that just won’t catch
It flickers
then sometimes all it once

smoke
Poof
Blacked out
Blocks out hope
Fear comes running to save
Yelling, “Wake up
This is not your grave!”

You come to
Knowing in your mind this is just a blip,

blip

something you will get through
Your heart screams, though
Its agony is not a dream
Alone and forlorn
Reaching but not clinging to the Lord
Wrapping in worldly blankets
Fake solace
Feet up, a metaphorical palace
You’re frozen
No motion

gamble
To spin the motivation
Wheel
It’s a gamble
Sometimes you are and sometimes you aren’t
That’s why it’s important to write about
Depression
It’s not the same for everyone
Symptoms may not match
The given definition
The roots dig deep
Into a soul who barely sleeps
Unearthing more pain
Is every bit of draining
A limited energy
In a vast sea
Of responsibility

waves

Oh Lord, all of my days
I will praise You
Please forgive my turning in
Like a turtle in a shell of sin
Clandestine
So I must speak it
Enlist support to count it
All joy
No decoys
Smile by faith
Receving and sharing love in the wake

feet

~~~

The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them;

He delivers them from all their troubles

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those crushed in spirit.

The righteous person may have many troubles,

But the Lord delivers him from all;

He protects his bones,

Not one of them will be broken (Psalm 34: 17-20).

~~~

Join me at 1pm Eastern time for #WarriorWednesday! A live poetry reading (of this poem) and an honest discussion about depression. Follow me here https://Facebook.com/jdibble4Him

Have a wonder-full day.

In Christ,

Julie

 

4 thoughts on “The Dimness in Depression

  1. Amen. The Lord is so near to the brokenhearted. My daughter went through a serious and deep depression, and there have been times, especially because of side effects from medication, that I have felt those anxiety and depression waves. God is so much nearer than we realize! How I pray for His grace to care for those who cannot feel Him there.

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    1. Thank you for sharing Bettie. Joining you in that prayer. It is for He I continue to write and speak about depression. And in my private time with Him, I have stopped asking when I will be free of depression and instead asking what can I learn. The journey is the gift. Have a blessed day, Bettie.

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    1. Thank you dear sister. The ministry God is shaping is still in His potter hands. Yet your comment here seems to confirm what I have thought. More prayer, more walking with my Jesus, and His lamp to my feet will further narrow the ministry focus.

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